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Monday, April 19, 2010

Separation Anxiety

This morning was just awful. This morning Ben just ripped my heart and made me feel like the worst mommy in the world universe. I am in school right now doing my student  teaching (woo who I graduate in May) and we have been on spring break this past week. So of course Ben has been at home with me all week and pretty much had 99% of my attention the whole time. Plus he was sick again last week so he hadnt been back to daycare since Wednesday b4 last.

So all weekend I had been trying to get him excited to go back to daycare so that way he wouldnt be to upset today. We have a great daycare, it is a small home daycare and all the kids are really good (no biters, hitters, etc).

Well, all was well until we pulled into her driveway. Then all HECK broke lose!! He began to cry and clung to me like white on rice. I finally got him in the door and sat down in her rocking chair to try and calm him down. Then it was time for me to hit the road and once again he clung to me like the end of the world was coming.

She had to pratically pry him off of me and he was screaming momma with those lil arms reaching out for my. Ya'll that was one of the hardest things to do is to walk away listening to him cry for me. So, I cried the whole way to work (yep i looked awful by the time I got to school). I would love more than anything to stay at home full time with my lil Boppers but we want to pay for his college education (and one day his bro or sis) and in order for us to save enough money to do that I HAVE TO WORK. I know it will be best for him in the long run and I know prob 10 min after I leave he is running around playing but at that moment I just want to say "ok, lets go home forget school and work". Hopefully tommorow morning will be easier than todays and I keep telling myself only 2 more weeks until I am home with him for almost 2 months.

9 comments:

  1. That is one of the worst things to get through. I have had that happen with my son and it just breaks my heart so much.

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  2. It just makes you feel so awful to leave them. Glad to know Im not the only one.

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  3. I used to work in a daycare, and trust me... in 10 minutes he had forgotten all about it. :) Rarely would we have children that would be upset any longer than than.

    It's good that it hurts you to leave though, in a way. It means you really care about him. What broke my heart the most was parents that didn't seem the least bit phased by it.

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  4. Ugh! Just shoot me now! I know that feeling. "Mamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!" We leave and hear it the rest of the day and can't get to them fast enough at the end of our outing. When to them it is "Mamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!..huh, what's that? Play dough? Wonder what that tastes like?" They are over it. Darn those rascals!

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  5. That can be so hard! My boys will randomly have these moments and then the very next not care if I left them or not.

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  6. I am so glad that I am not the only one who feels that way. Today was even worse when I woke up he ran to my room and got in the bed and screamed and cried for me to lay with him so of course I did but when he had to get ready he cried again wouldnt even let me change his jammies so he went to daycare in his jammies.

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  7. Poor baby! I'm getting so nervous about this b/c I got back to finish my masters in May (I was able to take the last year off.) Lboy doesn't even let me take a shower, let alone leave the house. I have no clue what I'm going to do. Thanks for following my blog, I'm a new follower of yours! I hope it gets easier for y'all, keep us posted! It will give me hope to read some positive stories.

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  8. Oh & I love your blog title! Cracks me up! I told my MIL the other day that I refuse to ever drive a mini-van, she told me she can't wait to watch me eat those words! lol

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  9. Thanks for becoming a follower. Let me tell ya, I ate my words about the minivan. The hubs doesnt let me live it down not for a minute.

    My lil guy is the same way very clingy to me. I promise it does get better once they get back into their routine.

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